Re: How often do you....?

Posted by FindingMyDesire on October 15, 2008, at 8:46:13

In reply to Re: How often do you....? » JayMac, posted by Dinah on October 15, 2008, at 8:26:59

This is my favorite of all topics!!!
I am constantly wishing I had a friend who was with me all the time my T wasn't just so I could be processing my feelings with my T with someone - all the time. (I suppose that friend would have to be selfless... maybe a therapist too in order to understand... HAHA)
I am really in SO much need and attachment and feelings of LOVE for my T right now it is overwhelming and confusing. I definitely check Babble to try to feel closer to my T (like Turtle) and I think come here because I hope that those of you who are attached and working through your feelings will post things that teach me about why this is so important and how to survive it. (And that often happens).
I'm with 10derHeart on how often - first thing in the morning - my eyes open and there she is in my mind. I can't wait to go to bed at night (or take naps) so I can lay there thinking about her. I fight the sleep just to have more time with her in my head. And any moment throughout the day where I disengage from work or have a moment to myself I go right back there. I'm reading books about therapy too - trying to understand. Or maybe, I'll admit, I'm trying to have some control over what I'm feeling. Like, if I can just figure it out then somehow I won't be blindsided by something later. Somehow maybe I can gain control so I don't end up hurt. And now, with the sexual fantasies, a whole new level of pain and discovery is coming - I can feel it.
Just this week though I may have actually believed, at least for a few days, that she truly cares about me. I'm trying to just take a deep breath and hold onto that.

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How often do you....? JayMac 10/14/08
Re: How often do you....? turtle 10/14/08
Re: How often do you....? » JayMac 10derHeart 10/14/08
Re: How often do you....? Suedehead 10/15/08
Re: How often do you....? Cal 10/15/08
Re: How often do you....? » JayMac sassyfrancesca 10/15/08
Re: How often do you....? » JayMac Dinah 10/15/08
Re: How often do you....? FindingMyDesire 10/15/08
Re: How often do you....? Suedehead 10/15/08
Re: How often do you....? » Dinah Phillipa 10/15/08
Re: How often do you....? » Suedehead 10derHeart 10/15/08
Re: How often do you....? JouezMoi 10/15/08
Re: How often do you....? » 10derHeart Suedehead 10/15/08
Absolutely!! » Suedehead lucie lu 10/15/08
Re: How often do you....? twinleaf 10/15/08
thank you for saying that!! » twinleaf lucie lu 10/15/08
termination...lucie twinleaf 10/15/08
Re: How often do you....? softheprairie 10/15/08
Exactly ! :-) (nm) » Suedehead 10derHeart 10/15/08
Re: How often do you....? workinprogress 10/15/08
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Re: How often do you....? Morgan79 10/20/08

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