Posted by Nadezda on October 11, 2008, at 22:55:46
In reply to I'm feeling so down these days, posted by lucie lu on October 11, 2008, at 11:48:47
I haven't had FM, but I had a problem with chronic shoulder pain that lasted for quite a few years, until I very fortunately found a great physical therapist. Chronic pain is awfully hard to deal with. Especially when my shoulders ached a lot, and even normal activities would increase it, it ate away at my self-esteem, and feeling of freedom, and competence. Carrying my backpack, picking up anything, leaning forward a little in a chair-- so many things that most people don't notice doing would really hurt/ The sense of never being able to get away from the discomfort, and constantly trying to make it a little better, or fearing that I would move and make it worse-- or the days when it was so bad that I could't concentrate -- eroded my mood. I don't know if that's at all how FM affects you, but any sort of physical discomfort that goes on and on can really take away one's sense of competence and optimism. For me anyway, it added to the weight of depression.
I can imagine that it also can make you feel more isolated from people--no matter how sympathetic, I don't think other people realize what it's like to feel that way all the time-- and yet it's always with you. Under the circumstances, it's so understandable that you feel more needy of your Ts holding you and making it better, as a child can be made to feel better. And especially if you and your DH feel more stress or tension between you-- you must feel very deprived of the comfort and connection that you hope to find with him. Both of these together must be so hard to manage.
Is there anything that you can do to treat the FM? I think it you felt better physically, it might make a huge difference in your mood. It's much easier to get up every morning, when you don't know that that burden will be there.
I very much hope something happens soon, so that you can again feel your T's presence more connectedly-- and also lessen the physical pressure. I'm glad you that you this won't last forever. I know it won't, but also know it can feel as if it will,
Nadezda
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