Posted by DAisym on September 15, 2008, at 21:04:50
In reply to ...Continued, posted by Partlycloudy on September 15, 2008, at 15:11:51
I had a discussion with my therapist yesterday about being in Church. I said that suddenly there was this peace that I recognized as safety. For the 45 minutes I was there, I didn't have to do anything, or be anything to anybody else - I could just sit. I let God "hold" me. I really didn't want to leave - the outside world is just too hard for me right now. It felt like I feel in therapy a lot - contained and safe and free to feel all the rage within me.
For me, I'm avoiding interacting with the world in any deep way because I'm afraid of leaking my bad feelings onto someone or something else. Rationally I know I'm not the kind of person to use my rage as a weapon, but it feels like I could. Perhaps it would be somewhat easier to go for a walk or enlarge your world a bit if you could find a safe place to store your rage for awhile.
I'm sorry you've been feeling so sad. I hope the acupuncture helped.
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