Posted by seldomseen on September 15, 2008, at 19:26:15
In reply to ...Continued, posted by Partlycloudy on September 15, 2008, at 15:11:51
I think you need to cut yourself some slack definately. The world will still be there when you decide to look at it again - when you are ready.
Rage is a very very odd thing. Certainly not something to be taken lightly. Unfortunately, what I found was that there was no great purge. No resounding "thank god I'm freed from that" type event. Personally, I couldn't write it out, I couldn't run it out, I couldn't even over work it out. I ended up just having to sit with it and wait for it to be incorporated and disseminated into who I was/am.
It seems as though you've done the hardest part - recognizing there is rage in you after having encapsulated it for so many years. But in my experience it's not something that you can labor over and be done with. It's almost as though you have to absorb it while not letting it engulf you.
Seldom.
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