Posted by Partlycloudy on September 14, 2008, at 6:48:06
In reply to Re: Trying to write me way through my back pain » Partlycloudy, posted by seldomseen on September 14, 2008, at 2:26:58
Yeah, at our last session we talked about what "managing my stress" looked like. I kind of have the self soothing thing down pat - but it's at the expense, it would seem of expressing the anger that I'm feeling, and that's why it's coming out as this physical pain. And I do come from a family where self expression was strictly frowned upon - not that we were allowed to frown! So that stuffing of feelings is what I do by second nature by now. And I'm sure that's what my mom's migraines are - and my sister's digestive troubles - we're all NOT expressing ourselves, not acknowledging our emotional pain and distress.
I have no problem getting in touch with the peace and the calm and finding the things that I'm relatively happy about - because those things help me exclude the anger and the pain. I think that what I am working towards instead is finding some way to feel this entire range - the ugly and the beautiful - and not feel overwhelmed by it all.
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