Posted by rskontos on August 16, 2008, at 12:54:40
In reply to Re: The truth has come out., posted by Amanda29 on August 15, 2008, at 16:30:06
Amanda,
I understand your reluctance to meet new people. I too am uneasy being with people in general new or old friends. I would, left alone, stay by myself. I hate getting out. My T wants me to go back to school and get a new degree. I would rather stay home alone.
I understand being shunned. I feel if I let out the real me people would not like her they like the other me that usually comes out the one that isn't really me, but can entertain people. Sigh. sometimes it is really hard to be yourself out in front of others isnt it. I guess we have to try to try being ourselves and not care too much about what they think, right? More like my 20 year old daughter. She never cares too much how people take her, and she had loads of friends. But then again, she has had a different childhood too.
I would tell you to just go ahead and spend time with your cousin and it will be ok. But I know how hard that is. So I will tell you to do it when you are ready. I don't think you have drama. I think it is just hard. And sometimes some people can't understand how hard it is too be with others. I do and that is what therapy is to help with. I am lucky in that my t gets it and pushes gently. I tell him I am too far gone but he does not agree.
I hope you get to a place when you feel more comfortable with yourself. Because for me, I think sometimes it is more I am not comfortable with me, so therefore I am not comfortable going out. Is that how you feel sometimes?
rsk
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