Posted by girl33 on June 29, 2008, at 17:00:05
In reply to Therapist in love with me or I´m crazy??, posted by girl33 on June 29, 2008, at 10:27:38
Oh my God, I´m so glad you two answered!.. I´d never expect to be so welcomed!. Thank you so, so, so very much!!!
Rskontos,thank you so much for your kind words!. And nooooo I absolutelly would never tell my mom about what happened! I think maybe my mom would be mad.. plus I know it might be bad for her career, the last thing I want to do is to do that!!
As I said, she (my ex T) really was a very, very nice person. And IF she really meant "I love you" in the romantic way, what can I say?? She´s human!! Plus I could see she was hurting sometimes (I could catch a look in her eyes- during therapy; I don´t know how to explain). I think that at the least she maybe felt guilt too. So as I felt because of the fact that she has a husband. I´d never, ever had a relationship with someone who´s married.
But this whole thing HURTS!!!!
I swear to you, it hurts sooooooooo much to be away from her!
I know some of you know what I mean, but in my case I can´t go on with the therapy anymore, neither I can see her, because it´s all messed up already!...
=(
Lucie Lu, thank you also sooooooo much for taking the time to answer me in such an elaborated way. Thank you, really!!
And you said the things that I didn´t write before in the first post I wrote, because I thought it was already too long (lol)!.. But I was about to write that too: about my suspicious that she said that more in a "motherly" way, a "caring" way, and not a romantic one.
That could also be the case, even because my T mentioned she went through a lot of things I also went through. We have such alike stories, so maybe she saw me kind of a "friend" (even though we never met as friends, we only met in the sessions, but she´d mention this or that; my mom also told me some things).
Well, I won´t go see her anymore, I can´t handle it.. I´m also feeling bad about the whole thing (the way she was, mad when I called her). But I think maybe it would be a nice idea to go see another therapist, one that, like you said, is more of a father or mother figure. That would be a good idea.
Well, once again thank you both very, very much!.. I jst wanted to hear opinions because I really was really messed up.
But even IF she had feelings for me I wouldn´t do nothing, ever, to harm her career. I just feel bad about all this (can´t believe it happened to me- hey you might think this is a good thing, but it´s teeeeeeerible, because now I can´t even love her platonically, because I can´t go to sessions anymore!!!! =( There´s nothing, nothing left!!!)
Once again thank you both SO much for the caring responses, all the best to you!..
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