Posted by rskontos on June 29, 2008, at 15:57:32
In reply to Re: ddnos.. my ikids » rskontos, posted by star008 on June 29, 2008, at 15:36:28
Yeah, we do, dont we. But my T is doing better and trying harder and fighting for our therapy to work. He does know DD though. I must say recently he has fought for us to continue working. But I have come to understand a certain amount is necessary to begin to do on our own. I mean, probably, if I could trust more, it would happen in the office with him. But I wanted to see for myself if there was anyone inside my head, so I tried on my own. Do you understand. I was fighting the dd dx. So I did not want him to see my dirty laundry in other words. So I worked on my own in secret I guess. To see if there was anything inside of my head. And through my research and my thoughts and my voices etc I have come to realize that indeed there is. The book I read really brought it home since I had aspects of three of that docs worst cases of neglect. The dissociative parts of the children he treated I had them and I realized I can't fight it any longer no matter how it makes me feel. And so the last time I was there, I said to him, just what the hell happened between my mother and i and my father to induce the extent of my dissociation states. It really makes me wonder why I dissociated so badly for so long and still do. He answered I know I have wondered that too but here are the facts we do know and we have your sisters suspicions. I have made it harder on myself for trying even with a therapist to do it on my own partly to try and deny and partly for being ashamed.
anyway,
we will get through this won't we?
rsk
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