Posted by frida on June 9, 2008, at 8:51:36
Hi,
Just thought i'd share something that's on my mind...
Last week I went through something really, really hard. I went to see my T and she didn't show up. At first I thought maybe i had done something wrong, but then I started to get worried that something could have happened to her or someone in her family. My T had never done this before,ever in almost 9 years I've seen her and she always encouraged me to get angry if she was late 5 minutes..it was so unlike her..I left her messages begging her to please let me know she was ok, that i hoped it was just a misunderstanding and nothing bad had happened..that i was SO worried.
I didn't hear from her that same day. I spent the night worrying and imagining the worst situations.
The following day I left another message, I kept calling to see if someone had changed her message..well at noon she did call me.
I was so relieved to hear her voice. She sounded really, really concerned and caring on the phone and said she was sooooo sorry..that she had left messages in my previous cell phone because at the hospital she didn't have her diary and couldn't check, but that she thought it was the right number..she explained that they had to take to the hospital one little one in her family as an emergency..she explained it all to me, she kept explaining and apologizing for how I felt until i heard from her. She told me how she had spent these hard days and that now she was ok and everyone was ok because the danger was over.
I told her how worried i had felt. I felt so relieved to hear her and felt so close to her.I see her this week.
This got me thinking into what i'd do if something happened to her, i felt so awful thinking that something could have happened ....i was so worried about her..
and also about me and what i'd do...i started thinking of all i haven't told her...of all the deep hard work we've done together...how giving she's been...
i'd be devastated if i lost her.has any of you in long-term T talked about something like this with your Ts?
i wish i could just die before something happens to her, she's been like a mother to me. i feel that losing her would be like losing a part of me forever...
thanks,
Frida
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thread:833742
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