Posted by Happyflower on May 15, 2008, at 11:25:16
I had a wonderful session today, it has been 3 weeks, and I think the break did some good. We didn't get into heavy trauma stuff, but we talked about our relationship mostly and about survivor positives.
But get this, I don't have to ever officially terminate! He is going to work with me on the trauma stuff and on positive ego stuff, however long it takes weekly.
But after that he said he is willing to be like a mentor to me, seeing each other on a much less frequent basis. He will be a mentor T for me, helping me become a good T. I am so happy, I can't discribe how I feel.
He also told me he is 66 and he isn't planning on retiring anytime soon. He has reduced his load over the past year, so he can continue to do a good job.
I told him about me deciding not to do the internship right now, and he though I made a good choice. I will have a chance to do this stuff in the future, but right now, I need to heal myself.
I also told him that sometimes I do things, not to purposely not talk about the hard stuff, but that it does take us off topic. But I said I realize it is hard not to talk about this stuff, because it is exciting even for him , BUT I need to let him not let me make it take it a whole session.
So I am telling him some of my defenses, not conscientiously , but natural ones.
We also talked about how with the economy getting bad with everything costing more, and my DH making a lot less money, I know I will be okay, because I know how to be frugal, I know how to survive. He told me he is happy to hear my view on this on finding a positive out of the negative of being abused. I think I am a little surprised over my positiveness today, maybe I feel better, I exercised today.
But most of all, I don't have to think about termination, I can relax about me getting too attached to him and having to lose him. I can concentrate on me, and not our relationship.
Today I am feeling like I am at the top of the world. ((((my T))))
poster:Happyflower
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