Posted by LadyBug on May 7, 2008, at 19:09:06
In reply to Re: Going to see my T- termination warning..., posted by LadyBug on May 6, 2008, at 21:23:52
My new job is so busy I don't have time to get on line at work right now so I don't get online till night time.
But thanks to all of you!!! You have all given me some good thoughts and compliments. I've been through h*** lately and I'm happy to say I did it mostly without her help! I am feeling pretty confident about myself at the moment and that is a strange feeling for me. Usually I tell myself I'm a piece of sh**.I called and left her a voice mail telling her I may come in one more time and then take a break for the summer and then in Sept, I can start up again and go from there as far as continuing on or termination. I can't walk after all the years of working with her, 11 years to be exact, actually 11 years and 4 months!
I hope things can continue to get a little better for me in my life. I'm hanging on to my underwear right now financially. I didn't expect my (ex)husband to go to jail even though it didn't surprise me. He was at least giving me few hundred bucks or more each month to help me out instead of a formal child support situation. Now he's in jail and has no job I don't think I'll get anything for help. No job, no car, no place to live when he gets out and I'm not going to make anything right for him!!! But it makes it hard to go see my T because I don't have insurance coverage right now to see her and I don't have the money. She's given me a break before, but she didn't mention anything about doing that right now. That's ok.I called her and left her a voice mail and told her I would like to see her one more time and then maybe not again until September? I hate it. I wish she wasn't so important to me. I just need to keep telling myself I'm just fine, I don't need her, she doesn't give me what I think I need from her and that is to be loved. I know she does love me we've talked about it before but it's not the main topic for our meetings.
You guys have been amazing to me the past few months and I appreciate it so much. I've been pretty lost and been through so much I can hardly believe it. If I didn't know myself, and someone was telling me all this stuff had happened to them I'd think they made it up. Seriously, it's more than most people go through in their lives let alone in a few months time.
I have to be strong and keep growing. Life has to work out for me.
Hugs to all and Thanks again for being my babble friends
~LadyBug
P.S. at least I don't have to terminate here!!!
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