Posted by seldomseen on April 27, 2008, at 9:52:33
In reply to Re: Understanding what is happening to me - SI tri » seldomseen, posted by Daisym on April 26, 2008, at 16:34:02
Daisy!
Welcome back, I hope you had a good trip. No worries at all about you not being here. I hope you are doing well.
Thank you for your insight into my situation. Containing the feelings is a huge issue for me, that is why I went after increased sessions with my T so strongly. It helps to sort of give a place to put them - in his office.
He had been reassuring me that the thoughts I have are a very small part of me, but I don't feel that way at all. It seems as though this part of me is huge and diametrically opposed to the person I thought I was.
Everything is now very conflicted and I just can't integrate it.
I show my cuts. I guess for the first time I want people to know what I am going through.
However, in the past few days the desire to do myself harm is lessening. Knowing that my T is there is helping immensely. This emergent odd fear of him just abandoning me has been somewhat assuaged.
I think we are all very resillient souls who can take pretty much whatever life throws at us. It doesn't always go down easy, but somehow we absorb it and go on.
Seldom.
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