Posted by crushedout on April 17, 2008, at 13:07:55
In reply to Dream about my ex-T (long and weird), posted by crushedout on April 17, 2008, at 10:47:48
Wow, that was an intense reaction. I want to go back and read what you wrote again raisinb but I don't feel strong enough. I just broke down pretty hard when I read it the first time and I realized that I hadn't cried in a while, and probably haven't cried that much about the loss at all. Probably have some grieving left to do. Ugh. Does it ever end?I think things are just really hard right now. The dream was kind of a feelgood dream in a weird way, and your interpretation feels cathartic but too painful for me to deal with. Maybe I can come back to it. Because I can't really think critically about any of this right now--I just have this big jumble of thoughts and feelings, few of which make much sense to me.
It's hard feeling like I have no one in this world who knows or cares if I live or die from day to day other than my cat. The truth was, my T didn't really know or care any more than anyone else but I kind of pretended to myself that she did. Of course I am exaggerating, as I have friends and family who care about me very much. But sometimes it's easy to lose sight of that.
Gosh, I think I'm just rambling. Sorry.
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