Posted by crushedout on April 17, 2008, at 10:47:48
I just had an unusually vivid dream about my ex-T (the most recent one). I was in a crowded coffee shop in a mall with my family and I ran into her. At first she acted awkward and ran off (at which point I told my family who she was). They said wow that must be weird to run into her and also it must be nice having someone like that in your life (I guess they didn't know I had dumped her).
My family included my ex-stepsister whom I haven't seen for years, my father, and my mother, who have been divorced since I was little.
The ex-T came back a little while later with *her* family, which included her husband and two sons, who were much younger than they are in real life. She said they had Christmas presents for me, and they were holding two wrapped gifts. We all laughed about how it was April and a bit late for Christmas presents.
I opened them--they were some type of journals or books but she had embroidered some stuff on them. Then her husband showed me a picture of himself taken two days before. He had white hair and a white beard. He was clipping the sides of the photo.
Her younger son started cuddling with me and then her husband told me she nursed them both till they were eight. I asked how old the younger one was (he was pretty like a girl with long hair and wanted me to play with his hair a lot)--he was nine and a half, he said.
She mentioned her daughter, which gave me a start because I always thought she didn't have a daughter. Actually, it hurt really badly but I tried to let it go.
I remember holding my mother really tight at one point and acting kind of like a child. This was actually before I was cuddling her son.
Then we all went outside and we were hanging out in this big park. Then the two boys and their father jumped in a swimming hole and I think I swam with them too. Then it started snowing, big giant, beautiful snowflakes. I remarked at how odd that was.
Then fireworks started and I realized it was the 4th of July. I lay down on the grass to watch them. I think I saw my ex-T and her husband embrace in celebration out of the corner of my eye.
Then I woke up.
I have no idea what to make of any of it, really. But I don't remember ever having any sort of intricate dream like that about her before and I remember so many details. There were a few moments in the dream when I felt bad (first running into her, hearing she had a daughter, a little bit when I heard she nursed her kids till they were eight--I felt jealous, but I also thought to myself, this woman is nuts). But most of the time it was a pretty good feeling, like we were all having fun together and bonding.
If anyone has any interpretations I'd love to hear them. I am terrible at dream interpretation. None of it really makes any sense to me and I just wanted to get it down before I forgot everything.
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