Posted by seldomseen on February 16, 2008, at 9:35:29
In reply to Re: It's so easy to describe bad therapy days. » seldomseen, posted by Dinah on February 15, 2008, at 20:06:42
Yeah, termination is off the table. It was obvious that I still had some issues to work through.
The whole time I was going through all of this stress and anxiety - both from my accident and from the deal at work - I had just kept most of bottled up. I Minimized it the whole time and it very nearly killed me.
I realized that if I had fully acknowledged what all was going on with me, that I was mortally afraid that I would just go under. The little bit I was able to admit, I did so on this board, but to no one else. It just reminded me too much of the seige of my childhood.
So even though I was crying every 30 minutes or so, "everything was just fine, I'm handling it wonderfully and getting this done it all that matters".
Yeah, we've still got a lot of work to do.
I think my therapist's office will always be home to me. My boundaries have never been violated there and any problems are worked out in a rational manner. Despite all the insanity that has been shared in that room, it's still the most sane place I know of in the world.
Plus I genuinely like my therapist and he genuinely likes me too.
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