Posted by Racer on February 15, 2008, at 15:16:04
In reply to Re: Upset with others, or me, or just fear? » Racer, posted by DAisym on February 14, 2008, at 20:50:52
> I have to wonder if you are being hard on yourself because you allowed yourself to feel proud recently.
Last night this percolated a bit. I wonder if this has to do with that abiding self-image as a screw-up thing? That my view of myself as being so fundamentally damaged that I can never be fixed might be disturbed by the recent spate of progressive moves? Maybe, since I was starting to feel stronger at my core, I'm reacting by leaping back into the protective shield of my familiar self-concept?
And maybe, when and if i ever feel stronger again, I'll learn some communication skills, too? (Bad day. Bad icky day...)
Oh, but straightened part of the friendships out -- dinner tonight, and we talked about what happened last week... We're OK... And I get to see another friend tomorrow, which will feel very, very good, and maybe make up for most of the ickiness of this past week.
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