Posted by lovelorn on December 22, 2007, at 16:18:36
In reply to House » lovelorn, posted by muffled on December 22, 2007, at 11:25:15
>but I kept it reasonably clean and took an interest.
I think that is key there. I take little interest in where I am living now. I do maintain it reasonably clean though it has gotten close to pigsty a few times, particularly when I was quite depressed after my breakdown. Depression makes everything go to pot. I clean it now about every three or four weeks, whereas before the breakdown it would be like every week. Think minimalistic. I don't have much extra besides the basics. If it were just me, I would probably let it go longer, but I do try to keep as 'normal' as possible appearance and function for my daughter's sake. It's damn well hard to do sometime, but I am getting better. It's an appartment actually. I am thinking of moving away in the next year or two, a big move once I figure out where I want to live. Would like to live closer to nature or a smaller city. Nature gives me peace of mind and I like smaller and simpler now versus grander. So in the meantime I am just refusing to buy anything extra or to make improvements in terms of adding things that will make it 'mine', if you know what I mean. I do know that I can't let that go on forever. For both me and my daughter, I will have to 'invest' some more one way or the other whether here or somewhere else. I just want it somewhere else. I am resisting to do that now.
>I think I would be just as happy if I lived in a shack in the bush.
That made me laugh. I have the same 'dream'. I am kind of a loner. lol
>You sure seem to have turned out a nice person though.
Thanks for the kind thoughts. I know I could have ended up worse as a person. I always strived to do better than my circumstances and I count too the grace of God for not ending up worse too.
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