Posted by lovelorn on December 14, 2007, at 15:33:38
In reply to one more thing......tried to get therapist to see, posted by rskontos on December 14, 2007, at 15:04:02
>i dont keep the emotions they reside in my parts and i don't control them yet
You do control them, by numbing them completely out.
>i can not maintain a balance
...and yet i am suppose to be controlling them i don't know how right nowBalance and manage. You cannot manage them or control their intensity (balance) - i.e. you do not know what to do with them or how to channel them, or maybe don't even know what the heck they are for. It may be scary, but to really control or manage something, you have to understand it. I think you will only be able to manage your emotions once you experience them and can understand what they mean and why you have them.
>and that is another thing i feel almost separate from my body - i know what it is but what do you do about that
I wish I had an answer. I don't. I don't experience what you experience. Ask your T or a pdoc specifically that question: What do I do about that.
>i still from crazy or at best spinning out of control in my head
I sincerely hope not, rsk. I hope with continued therapy you will get a better handle on those feelings. It is interesting because you say in your other posts you want so much to remember. The mind has a way of giving us what we want. After reading your other posts, I am wondering if your present difficulties may be your mind's way of preparing you for what you want to happen and so why you are experiencing increased switching and having a sense of so much being close-to-the-surface, or as you said 'hovering'.
As for seeing a pdoc. I think that would be a good idea. It doesn't hurt to get the advice and counsel of a psychiatrist, particularly since you have a psychiatric condition of DID. If you are thinking of getting a medication, ask yourself what symptom/symptoms you would like the medication for and to communicate that clearly to the pdoc.
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