Posted by llurpsienoodle on December 10, 2007, at 19:09:25
In reply to Re: ((LL)) » LlurpsieNoodle, posted by rskontos on December 9, 2007, at 11:10:09
> Hey I liked the slashes. As a kid I just dissociated like heck. So many lost memories. But I think they are slowly reintroducing them. I had a another tiny glimpse/flash/whatever you want to call them as they are new to me I don't know what to call them, this morning. This one was a dog, and a child and a man came a tried to take them. I kept watching hoping the memory that someone was showing me, it was even like a video you know framed like youtube or a movie, would keep playing. But it didnt. It just stopped. SO I am getting I guess small snippets. For now. I isn't making me remember anymore on my own yet. My T tells me that what I went through was horrible. I just checked out and don't remember any of it. I guess I am very fragmented due to it.
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> Did they say in the seminar anything about whether or not you should remember it. MY T is if it comes then ok but it is not necessary to remember. I am not sure I agree.it's a difficult issue- my problem was usually that I experience my memories as intrusive thoughts and flashbacks, more that I remember TOO much, rather than not enough at all. The stuff in this thread refers to memories that were always known, but not integrated. (does THAT make any sense? hmmmm. I dunno. .
I didn't go to the seminar, but I've read a couple of books on trauma and memory. One of them that I can recommend is "trauma and recovery" It's more about the psychological science of how trauma affects the psyche. Maybe you'd find it interesting. You might find it triggering as well. What I usually am able to do is to approach things from nerdly llurpsie point of view and not let it get to my feelings. Can you do that? maybe I'll start a thread on it...
-Ll
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