Posted by muffled on December 6, 2007, at 14:58:29
In reply to Re: How'd it go?((LL)) » muffled, posted by llurpsienoodle on December 6, 2007, at 8:51:24
> I kind of referred to the monday session without referring to its content.
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> It wasn't so bad. t was sleepy (((sleepyT)))
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> It was dark outside, so that was kinda strange.
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> all in all, and uneventful session.
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> I go to class now skedaddling
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> -Ll**Hmmm, them T's...they got they own PLANS that we dunno bout!!!! Rotters! LOL.
I bet he was trying to let you connect w/him but not 'work' but just connect and be 'normal' and not trying to crash ahead. He proly know this is TOUGH TOUGH TOUGH stuff, and it goto be accepted, digested etc, just a bit at a time. Its too big to take in a bite or two. Nibble, nibble. Thats the only way methinks.
PATIENCE.
I think mebbe your T is GOOD. Mebbe good as mine! HA!
For me, I chafed, I wanted to get down to business. I actually SAID some, let the dam break and the filth rush forth and be GONE. I wondered my T say nothing, like it wasn't even. But I don't think it works that way....not so easy :-(
So my T, she stay away from it, she say all in its time. She proly know its gonna come back, so we work then, but for now, I just sit w/it and have my gut hurt, but I think in the background is growing acceptance, slowly slowly.
She a smart cookie my T....lotsa times, later, I see what she been doing, but I don't realize it at the time. SneekyT! LOL. But she doing her best for me, and I pretty much trust she doin what best for me.
WOW.
I pretty much trust my T?!
CALL THE PAPERS! This is NATIONAL news material!
NEVER thot I'd see the day.
Anyhow, methinks this trauma stuff like cutting a blackberry thicket, OH MAN! , you ever done that??????Wicked.
You got to cut chunks, here and there. Cut the chunks into bits to haul to the burnpile. You goto work slow and careful cuz them prickers are wicked, and no matter HOW careful you are, when you get in tub later, you covered in scratches, you got thorns stuck in your skin, it hurts and stings when the water gets on them. Takes alotta time and careful steady work to chop them backies back. Hard slow work, and lotsa owies. Just the way it is.
If I tried to just jump in and start hacking, I end up COVERED in bad deep scratches and prickers stuck deep in my skin all over, my clothes ripped(this is the voice of EXPERIENCE talking!). Now I older and smarter and more careful.
Think trauma T the same.
Take care LL.
Patience, and you doing right and good things.
And if we slip up, s'ok, we accept and move ahead again.
Just keep going.
M
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