Posted by muffled on December 3, 2007, at 13:59:44
In reply to Re: OK NEW one....EMOTIONS, posted by rskontos on November 30, 2007, at 10:13:35
> mine come up bam! huge and out of no one and I think becuase I denied them for so long and dissociated instead. Now they have to come out. It is hard because I can't control them when they do and I lose it big.
*Yeah, thats one of the hardest parts of T. Losing some old tried and true (but damaging and dysfunctional...) coping mechanisms... I cannot always dissociate now, even when I WANT to...
I still can keep emotions away though. TG for that.> But yesterday and the day before for the first time in my life I felt some sense of hope like something good might be coming my way. I have never and I mean never thought this. I don't understand it and I am not sure where it came from. I had hoped to hold on to longer so I would remember that feeling so I might feel it again but so far today it is gone. But maybe just maybe I will feel it again. Maybe it came from a part of me deep inside that never got a chance to live, that is my hope so maybe I can nurture that. Wouldn't that be a good thing.
*I think that feeling of hope was VERY VERY REAL RK. Hang onto it. I think its the light at the end of the tunnel you glimpsed. Its there, we can't always see it, but we gonna find our way outta the tunnel and into the light.
> Emotions can be good and bad so I guess we should welcome them. But I know many of us spent a long time hiding them and running from them so we have to learn how to deal with them. I know I do. They can make me crash fast so I will let myself go numb to avoid them. But can we heal from not having them I don't think so.*yeah, I reckon we goto deal w/the damn things...
My T says the same, there are BOTH good and bad emotions, and even bad emotions are important in that they are signals that something is wrong and needs to be dealt with...
> I think it good you are having them. You are so great about putting it out there that I do think you will figure it out. YOu are one smart cookie muffled and you try so hard.... and you care so much I think you will get it. Take care and heart. I know that you probably have some great kids, irl, I would be they are so precious just like their mama. They really are lucky to have you.*Thx RK. I think we all got smarts here in babbland, it just sure helps alot to have other babblers to help us along the way.
Thanks,
Muffled
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