Posted by Tallulah on December 3, 2007, at 9:24:04
Hi all, I'm new so am figuring I won't get too many/if any at all responses, but I really need to vent.
I've been seeing my therapist for over 3 years - seem to have a good relationship with him and mostly, when I'm feeling sane, I see what a lot our sessions have done for me. Anyway, am not starting to ramble so will get to the point. He runs these workshops and suggested it might be a good thing for me to join one - 2 days - Saturday and Sunday - with a group of 12 people.
He told me I was the only one of his clients to be there, so typically I thought - oh great, so I'll be the special one *rolly eyes* - Course how it worked out was quite different.
I went along to work on my issues of intimacy and inability to connect with others. Not only did I feel like a complete outsider, which kind of negates the point of being there, but I felt stupid and fake, plus jealous of all the other people in the room whenever my T spoke to them.
I left early, and spent most of the evening in tears. Still feeling dreadful today.
My next session with my T is tomorrow (Tuesday) evening and it's like I can't wait - it's tortuous. I'm not sure if I'm more angry for him suggesting it, jealous of sad. Just feeling quite desparate.
poster:Tallulah
thread:798440
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