Posted by star008 on November 25, 2007, at 7:05:05
In reply to This is what I will send my T to discuss...., posted by Muffled on November 24, 2007, at 23:50:11
Therapy does suck muffled. And you T doesn't run because she likes you.. if you were too much for her or she really didn't like you she would refer you to someone else. Why did this happen to you when you had everything growing up and life was good??Who knows. But we know tht this is not how you wanted to be and if you could've made things different you would have.. maybe you made mistakes..We all have but with us there is something wrong in the way we are "wired""..Who knows.. some sh...t about neural pathways or whatever!! It is terrible, It is awful and no one deserves it.. I think we are sick just the way someone who has a physical illness is. I don't ask to wake up depressed.. My childhood was terrible but I think that even if it wasn't I would still have to deal with whatever is wrong in my brain or chemistry or whatever..And who is thatkid and why does she have memories and pictures if nothing ever happened??. No, she won't go away now but you already know that;(..
The self-destructive part? I am not sure how to handle it either. We know it isn't right.. I guess we just try to keep a handle on it and not let it hurt us. Easier said than done, I know.
hugs muffled
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