Posted by rskontos on November 24, 2007, at 10:37:24
In reply to Re: llrp has a sore throat » cactus, posted by ClearSkies on November 23, 2007, at 13:45:15
Yeah, I have the same notion. LL I am sorry you are in this deep place. I hear your pain. My father just left and I am in the deep numb place where no one can hurt you state. The problem is I usually can't emerge from that place very well. I have dissociated so badly to get through this Tday and I was so MAD i just went numb. My father had so much negative things to say I want to just yell a not nice word at him so I had to go numb. I started staring at him last night and just had to quit that so.....man I hate the holidays. I also decided I don't like my brother inlaw. He brings out something unpleasant in my memories that I dont really remember. My others remember and they don't like him so I am uneasy the whole time I am around him. Not good you know. I am so sorry I have hijacked this thread.
This is about LL not me. My T is also making me mad. But that is another thread I havent had the energy to write.
I agree with Real me and the others that you probably need to let it out but I do know it is hard. I have memories I will one day need to let out I just dont remember them now. I only hope I am brave like you at the time. YOu are brave LL. And hey we are two Southern ladies I knew we shared a bond. So I hope to be as brave and walk tall and strong like you when I am close to the point you are. YOu have made good progress. I think the memories are knocking on your door because they need to be dealt with and no it will not be easy but then this whole therapy thing is no picnic. But you can do it........rk
I hope I made sense and I am hoping Båbble can help me feel again. If I didn't make sense ignore my ramblings.
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