Posted by star008 on November 18, 2007, at 7:08:25
In reply to Re: How much Can I really take?, posted by rskontos on November 16, 2007, at 10:38:51
Hi Rk
thx for your response. I was sober for about 12 years with a couple minor slips. I did have to feel the depression more. I stayed sober for a long, long time but recently I guess I got discouraged and just couldn't take the depression anymore. I have been in therapy for years and have tried med afte med after med.. Some work for a little while and I think that maybe this time will work for me but I always end up crashing down again. I don't have faith that any med will work for me any more.. I am treatment resistant as far as meds go and don't get a whole lot of relief from therapy either. I keep trying new combinations of meds.. nothing works for any length of time if it works at all.
I do understand some of my triggers..There are many of them.sometimes I just crash and know it was a trigger but didn't even notice what it was. I have lots of the childhood stuff too.. Alot of the time my life just sucks..
No, waht you said was not too much for me.. I understand what you are saying. I have only been drinking a couple of days a week and not getting more than a bit drunk. I think I honestly know that it isn't the best way to go for me but I have been relieved to take a break from the endless depression. I don't know why it worked, but it did. My P and my T aren't too happy about it!!
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