Posted by rskontos on November 16, 2007, at 10:38:51
In reply to Re: How much Can I really take?, posted by star008 on November 16, 2007, at 7:38:48
Star008, Today my neuro said something I thought was good when we were discussing the AD I am on. When I told her that I was not getting the high and energy etc that alot of people said they got when taking them she replied that you don't really want to totally numb the depression if you are in therapy because then you won't be motivated to work on the depression. I have been thinking about that. Are you using drinking to avoid it too like she suggested. I had not really thought about being motivated to do something about the depression and working on what caused it. She did ask me if I was making progress. I am . But I know it takes time and for me I know my issues have been around since childhood. Do you know what is the source of your depression. I dont know if that is important but it would seem to me IMHO to get something under control you must know the controls and mechanisms of it first. Do you know the controls and triggers of your depression or does life just suck? I think if you fall in the category of life just sucks it is much harder because you really need to discover the source. I have a difficult childhood to put to rest. I am not sure if laying that to rest will ease the depression for good but that is my hope. I would not worry so much about the drinking because I think you are just using it to numb you when you cant take the depression. So you don't blow up. My T says not to struggle so much against your inner self but go with the flow to a point and to try and work with yourself. do you see a way to do that? I am very introspective at the moment so forgive me if this seems like a bunch of rambling. I mean well but if you find that you can't handle this you won't hurt my feelings. I just felt your pain when I read your post and it reminded me of what my neuro said and who would think a neuro would have some insight? She is a good doc though and listens to me when I talk about my issues and offers advice. Another first in my book.
Good luck I wish you well. I do understand how hard this is. rk
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