Posted by emily99 on October 26, 2007, at 22:17:27
In reply to Re: Coming to terms with CSA - TRIGGER THREAD, posted by DAisym on October 26, 2007, at 20:59:16
I have only told all of you here what I've recently come to believe about my CSA. I didn't know where to turn, and felt safe with all of you. Of course my T knows, and my sister, but I don't plan on telling my children (who have families of their own), or anyone else.
What I said about "coming to terms" with it, for me, means allowing myself to believe it and to start processing it. I am so thankful to have a good T. I am feeling sorry for myself right now, and can see how it changed me. But I can also see how it made me stronger.
I don't have any hard feelings against my sister. I think that she wanted to help me by telling me. I've always had an unrealistic love and devotion to my father, which just didn't fit into reality.
My sister was severely beaten by my dad to never tell. I think it is a relief for her that I finally believe her, since she paid a price, too.
I am sorry if I am triggering any of you.
I sense that there are those of you who will hold my hand through the tough parts. I keep thinking I'll escape that, but I'm not thinking clearly right now.
Emily
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