Posted by B2chica on October 16, 2007, at 8:26:17
In reply to of course..., posted by Dory on October 15, 2007, at 14:39:20
Dory.
there is one thing about depression...and i see it in you very much these days.
is that it rains with introspection. i wish more people had this. but it seems many of us with depression get it to such a degree that it circles with depths of despair.i am glad to hear you have 'stepped up' (so to speak) to managing vs. well, thoughts of death.
and ok so this might continue to return...for now. dont circle your thoughts on that. in order for you to go down you must first be up. so that means you WILL feel better. and hopefully by then the meds will be kicking in better.
this is NOT hopeless. no matter how bad you feel.
and hopefully by the end of this post, one of us will in fact be convinced of that ;^)i think when we are in that state of 'utter misery' that the BEST thing we can do is express it in an artistic way. paint, draw, journal, poetry...heck even through physical exertion exercise/yoga/pilates...something like that.
utter misery, if absorbed and not expressed feeds off us. you
please, if you don't have time to journal, keep writing here (or create a blog). it is very very important to get the feelings of this dismal abyss out.
i am glad your T is back, however it doesn't sound like it is very steady. i know sometimes we think seeing a T is pointless. but i think when we are not stable, that is when we must keep seeing them. even if we choose NOT to bring up old issues. just to have an "accountability officer" so to speak does wonders. i don't think it would be pointless.
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Thank you for letting us in on what's going on with you. it's so important that we stick together now more than ever.
please take gentle care of yourself Dory.
b2c.
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