Posted by Scentedgarden on October 2, 2007, at 17:52:28
In reply to upset.. 2 the maxxxx possible pain/suicide trigger, posted by Scentedgarden on October 2, 2007, at 17:25:45
Is it possible that i have been digging a bigger hole for myself ...?
Thats not really my question, but i didnt know what else to ask..!! lol - seriously though I have been to an NHS therapist for 4 yrs and its been a hard struggle for me ever since i began to fall for her.( i am also a woman) please dont send me any lesbo smart remarks ..this isnt about sex.. this is desire, of the real sort. yes id like to make love to her body but only because i love her smile and her mind ,
eyes
mouth
face
hair
figure
brains
humour
lifestyle
everything, even the bad things i love because i love her.
Seriously i am in a world of pain. maybe we blew it; she and i, but it is what it is.. she knew how i felt, and she said its ok as long as i dont tell her the erotic details of my desire.. so i played the role of loving child to good mother.. and she was and is a loving mum to my inner child but the adult me is so in love with the adult in her.. This is nigh impossible to explain... the pain im in, the desire and ache to be both in her arms and have her in mine. To be her baby and her to my baby tonight.sorry if this makes any of you want to chuck up.. id not be surprised as i think nim about to go do just that..!!! -------sg
Q.what do you get if you're me and you fall in love..?? A. a huge big hole in your heart pocket, thats what you egt for all your love... ooh i hope i never fall in ,love again. the end
poster:Scentedgarden
thread:786546
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