Posted by LittleGirlLost on September 24, 2007, at 20:13:04
I know I don't post often, but I really need help with something. I'm not sure how to word it, so I hope it doesn't come across offensive at all, as that is most certainly not my intent.
::::Deep breath:::: Where do I begin?
Ok, like the subject says, "Does Babble ever interfere with therapy?"
Several weeks ago, my therapist and I got "off track". I don't feel like getting into the specifics as it is quite long, so hopefully it won't be necessary in order to get my point across in this post. But what bothered me even more was that I found myself thinking, "so-and-so's therapist would have said this", or "so-and-so's therapist would have said/done this." It's bothering me that I am comparing her to some of what I am reading here. It's also been a few weeks, and we are still not back on track yet. The misunderstanding was pretty bad, and I'm just "not feelin' it now" and honestly, that worries me.
You see, I come from a family where we did not (and still don't) talk about things. While I may not post much on Babble, I do read; and in doing so, I finally worked up the nerve to try to bring up something with my therapist that I thought was pretty big. Somehow there was a miscommunication, or misunderstanding, or something, so naturally I felt embarrassed (about my feelings) and completely shut down and considered that topic off limits -- but it shouldn't be! Now I can't get past this! I feel like I finally start to bring up something deep and I'm shunned. I'm embarrassed to talk about it further; nor do I want to. But how do I get past it? Me, the non-talker, feels that the only way is TO talk about it, but last week my therapist made a comment which led me to believe that she thinks it will take time "and I'll just get past it". Quite frankly that kinda concerns me as it seems backwards!
I'm really worried. :(
But also, my point with the possible Babble interference is, I wonder if I'm making this worse because I'm kind of comparing how she handled it to how other therapists would have, and I feel disappointed?
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