Posted by muffled on September 16, 2007, at 15:46:38
Soooooooooooooooooo,
I was reading, and there's this person who wrote something along these lines.When I am with my husband, in bed, and he is making advances towards me, I have managed to not run away, but rather remain primarily immobile.
My thots are, as this is going on...
WHY is he doing this?
Oh God I feel so disgusting.
Nooooooooooooo.
Stop it!
Why is he doing this?
No, no, no.
I wish I could get away.
WHY is he doing this?
I wish he would stop.
etc etc
Meanwhile my lips remain sealed, my face turned away, my eyes periodically covered by my hand as I squeeze my temples trying to escape, but no longer being able to.
There was a time I dissociated.
There was a time where there was abject terror.
I suppose this situation could be considered an improvement.
I have yet to allow full access.
I always manage to escape.
There WAS a time, a long time ago where I could feign enthusiasm. That was a long time ago.
So is anyone familiar with this scenario?
So whaddya say?
This person feels real bad bout it.
Embarrassed too.
M
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