Posted by annierose on August 31, 2007, at 6:52:02
In reply to Forced Termination and Hatred *Trigger SI*, posted by ForeverWounded on August 31, 2007, at 5:27:36
It's understanding that you have such strong feelings about a termination that wasn't of your choosing. Since you are still seeing him until November, are you sharing these feelings with him? It's devasting to lose someone that is a "holder" of so many emotions. Now your container will no longer be available. In the meantime, you can express this anger, hatred, etc. to him. See how he handles this. Maybe some healing can occur before he takes on the new position.
I am sorry that you won't consider seeing another therapist. In the past, when this has happened to other babblers, more often than not, the new therapist has been a positive change. It may take you some time before you are ready to see another therapist, but don't assume that it will be another negative experience.
Feelings are difficult. They won't just go away. The hatred and anger just lingers in your psyche until you are ready to deal with them ... sort them through.
I do understand though your feelings. I have left a session feeling intense anger. But when I see her the next time, I express it --- usually still full of rage. It's helpful to explore those intense feelings. Try to use your remaining sessions with him productively.
I'm sorry you are so hurt. Sometimes life isn't fair. When I ask my t a similar question, "Are you going to leave me," she is careful to answer, "I have no plans of moving (retiring, etc) at this time," leaving out the "but if sometime comes up ...."
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