Posted by RealMe on August 27, 2007, at 21:53:06
In reply to saw my old T, posted by Happyflower 1 :-) on August 27, 2007, at 12:24:08
I know exactly what you mean. My last visit with my therapist I told him I had to dissociate and look at a spot on the wall when he was getting annoyed with me and telling me it was okay to dissociate ( I told him the week before). So then he agreed it was not okay if I was feeling so traumatized by what he was saying. I wanted to come twice per week too, and he said no that he thought it would not be good for me. Anyway, when I left I went to shake his hand goodbye, and he grabed my upper arms with his hands as if he was going to give me a hug, and he sort of had tears in his eyes. I think he realized he had made a major blunder with me from way back and not just the last few sessions. I just wrote on Ll's message about triggers that I dreamed about him last night, and when I ran into him and caught his eyes to say hi, he just looked down and did not acknowledge me. I wonder if he has had people quit on him before or that often, especially people he has been seeing for two years. I wonder what he would do if I really saw him. It is doubtful I will though his office building is only about three blocks away from my T's office building. On Wednesday's when I see my T is one of the days I used to see my old T, and I have wondered if I would see him if I went into the old buidling. I never will, though.
RealMe
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