Posted by Happyflower 1 :-) on August 27, 2007, at 12:24:08
I saw my old T today at the gym, and I just felt sad. He did look at me this time, he didn't look good, I think he might finally realize how he impacted me. His look was the look of concern and he seemed scared. But he also looked exhausted too. He even seems sad, there were no smiles in those eyes. Maybe it was a reaction to how I looked, I don't know.
When I told him I never thought I would use EMDR because of HIM, he looked at me, and looked down in my goodbye session. I think he finally knows how hurtful he was.
I think the intensity of my emotions were gone that day because of the EMDR treatment my new T gave me, but I also felt exhausted emotionally and physically. I think I may have come across as angry with my words, I don't believe I said them in that tone, maybe just a "hurt" tone of voice or a dead tone, but my words were honest on how I felt. I just wish all of this didn't happen.
He took advantage of my trust and hurt me, and that is hard to just get over. But with my new T, I think I will be able to. I hope.
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