Posted by B2chica on August 1, 2007, at 12:25:58
In reply to Re: using your Safe Place **triggers**, posted by slugdoo on July 31, 2007, at 16:40:04
dont mind at all sluggy. as much as i've shared (in the past) with this bunch...dx is the least of what i'd admit to! LOL
i thought i was doing better since session yestterday...but today im getting increasing anxiety...and starting to get this "light" feeling...god i hope i dont dissociate here at work!!
i started to get a cold and i have little sleep so that could all be factoring in...interestingly i was at session, told T that i read book on EMDR ..but NEVER asked her if she did it??? am i a fr*gging idiot or What??
but i brought my music thi time...prepared...and she wanted me to go over a memory ...and i got "bottlenecked" and couldn't talk...i asked her if i could listen to music while talked, she though that was a fine idea....that way i could get it out without really having to hear myself say it....it worked well..some times i had to turn it up louder, sometimes softer...but it worked...i pretty much stayed present. but honestly, its like she was doing a bit of emdr...she asked me to focus on one memory....then i walkd her through it, then she had me describe surroundings, which i really liked...not sure why...then any feeling/emotions i had. the hardest part was reintroducing "the girl".
i didn't tell her but when the girl really truly came out she was talking to me (not me pretending to have her say things), my T was telling me what to say to her but i had both of them talking at the same time...it was kinda hard. she looked right at me and my T was telling me to let her go, and she yelled at me for making her go back...she said she hated me, why wasn't i listening to her...that even though i said 'i listen', that i'm just like everyone else...she was So mad at me. she disappeared.anyway...so was that kinda like emdr only without the light? or is that how most trauma sessions go?
my last T was great but i only 'got things out' we never talked about them...sorry so long...
thnx
b2c.
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