Posted by OzLand on July 13, 2007, at 17:07:56
In reply to Re: Tormented my Pdoc might terminate me (long **csa), posted by antigua3 on July 13, 2007, at 10:31:09
Oh I am not saying it is one bit easy. I decided to trust a male therapist and started to talk about abuse issues. This was two years ago. He ended up a year ago telling me to find another therapist as he thought I couldn't get past being angry with him. He sent me to some other psychiatrist for a consultation, and this guy said to me, "Boy you came cheap" when I said something about the abuser when I was age 7 and 8. So, I was angry at my therapist for sending me to a jerk like that. I had trouble getting past that, and my therapist (psychiatrist) kept saying I needed to do ECT as I was getting worse and worse emotionally after I begged him not to get rid of me and promised not to get angry with him. Well, post ECT he got angry with me for complaining about the memory problems I was having, and he said he thought there was nothing wrong with me dissociating. So I knew I had to find someone else; I found someone early May this year who is warm and like I said in another post, almost too nice. He is gone right now to a conference, but he gave me his cell phone number, etc. and he has been wonderful in a lot of ways and perhaps becasue he has worked with persons who were sexually abused and has lots of experience (30 years) and is an analyst with extra training, I think I lucked out. Actually I researched docs in the area and thought I would see what he is like.
Believe me I have had some real jerks over the years that I would not have trusted in a million years. ON the other hand, I had one who was like a father to me back in the 80s and I should have told him, but I didn't and now he is deceased. This is what triggered all the stuff coming back and overwhelming me.
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