Posted by fiji on June 28, 2007, at 8:03:46
In reply to Therapy these days, posted by scratchpad on June 28, 2007, at 7:34:20
I am so sorry you are feeling this bad. I hate to sound like a nagging mother, but can you tell your T this? Or give her this email? You are covering up so well that she can't see it. Maybe you don't want her to see it?
Yes, you are much better than you were last year at this time, but things are so different now too. Your needs are very different, and you know that you have things that need to be dealt with now that you have other things under control (well, we never really have it "under control," right? but you're dealing better). But other things crawl out once our old defenses are gone.
Are you saying that you're as good as it gets right now? Can you live with that? Or do you want to tackle the underlying things, which seem to be popping up as soon as your comfort from therapy wears off?
Do I sound harsh? I don't meant to. I just care about you very much. Take the risk to open up, you are stronger now, I know you are and so do you. But it's not easy--once the outer layer is removed, there's a whole lot more going on...otherwise, we have given up the defenses but we are still the same person underneath. You have found new ways to cope, but they don't seem to be filling your needs.
I'm glad you can keep your volunteer work going. That says a lot. But you have to take care of yourself first.
love,
antigua
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