Posted by Dinah on June 12, 2007, at 18:37:02
In reply to I have no excuse for being depressed, posted by peddidle on June 12, 2007, at 0:26:52
I have the same feeling sometimes. There was nothing in my background that caused how I am now. Certainly there were things where looking back, you could say they contributed.
My mother left my dad and moved far far away when I was two, and I didn't see him for at least a year. Then when I was four we left my grandma where I had lived since I was two, and moved far far away back to this stranger who was my dad. That could contribute to issues of trust or attachment.
My father was never physically violent, but he had quite a temper, and I was sort of scared of him when I was little. He rarely if ever directed it straight at me, but it was still scary. He and my mother detested each other and had loud fights all the time. My mom has a sketchy grasp on reality as well as her own temper, once I got old enough to not be an extension of her and her wishes.
But I don't think any of those things are significant enough to cause my troubles.
I finally just decided I'm wired a bit too finely and tautly and that by nature my reactions tend to be rather extreme. I'm not sure anything that my parents did or could have done would have made a significant difference. I just need to learn ways to work around it. Sometimes that seems more possible than other times.
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