Posted by peddidle on June 12, 2007, at 0:26:52
I've been thinking lately that I really have no excuse for my depression/dysthymia/whatever it is. I mean, aside from my best friend dying two years ago, I never experienced anything really traumatic. I guess I have complicated bereavment issues, but I had problems before any of that happened. I can't help but think that my T looks at me and thinks "OK, there are people with real problems out there, what are you depressed about?" In reality, I know she would never think that way, but I still can't help thinking about it. So, if I figured all this stuff out, why am I still dysthymic (whether or not I'm depressed is still a matter of debate between my therapist and me...I don't "feel" depressed, but I'd be willing to admit that I just can't recognize it anymore).
I'm not saying that depression is a privilege, or anything like that, and I wouldn't wish it on anyone, but I feel kind of guilty because I don't have any right to be depressed,
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