Posted by Dory on June 6, 2007, at 14:38:31
In reply to an apology...esp to Llurpsie, posted by Dory on June 6, 2007, at 10:42:52
what do i do? i am so lonely and sad. i want someone to talk to in person.. i want someone to let me cry if i need to or can. i want someone to just sit with me. Maybe someone who can hold my hand and give me courage to do some of the tasks i need to do to try and build a life. Stupid things. Make phone calls. i am afraid of the phone. Someone who will be there and help me feel it is ok.
i am trying stay calm and avoid crisis. i called my T's voicemail and told him i can't see him after the next appt. That was hard but it has to be that way. My next call is to shut off my cable and downgrade my bundle. No long distance calls anymore.
i feel tired and stupid and foggy. my brain feels like jello. Hard to think. Want to sleep but can't. Anxious but the clonazepam makes the brain fog worse. Even dog snuggling isn't helping.
how can someone like me end up in this place? i am a good education, i'm not completely stupid, i work hard. How did i end up making 8/hr part time? How did i end up like this?
this pit is so deep this time. i wish someone IRL would come and sit with me. Is that so much to ask? i am going to have supper with this girl i barely know.. can't ask her to just be there you know? i need someone who can sit in silence with me and just hug me if i need it.
i wish i were like real people
poster:Dory
thread:761479
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20070525/msgs/761497.html