Posted by gazo on May 12, 2007, at 14:35:04
In reply to Re: voicemail...what do i ask for?, posted by peddidle on May 12, 2007, at 13:37:03
you know.. that is true.. and i have often stopped H from calling me other things, and make him say my name instead. i feel depersonalized even when it's meant nicely.
i do want more than just his voice though... i have that now. i want what i got when i got anxious in his office. i don't care so much what he says, but i want that quality of whatever it was. His tone changed or something.. i don't know.. it was more emotional maybe? Gentle? i don't know, i mean, he's always calm and gentle but something was different somehow because he saw i was in distress.
he didn't say anything unusual.. it was stuff like "tell me what you are thinking/feeling right now.." and so on. He tried to get me to breath slowly and stuff but i couldn't.. i just couldn't DO anything differently, all i could do was listen and so i focussed on his voice and i calmed down.
so in a way you are right, it is his voice..but it has to be that concerned voice? the one that knows i am hurting or freaked out?
Monday's appt is going to be very weird.
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