Posted by gazo on May 10, 2007, at 22:47:48
In reply to Re: a HUGE step » gazo, posted by Happyflower on May 10, 2007, at 16:26:12
you have no idea... proud and scared sh*tless. i realized tonight that this now means that Monday i have to tell him what i'd like the message to be... with him sitting right there looking at me. have i lost my f*cking mind!?!
i was on about 5mg of clonazepam when i made the call last night and i had morning brain when i answered this morning... still had trouble saying what i thought would be a good idea.
i don't even *know* what would be a good idea to ask for... i just find his voice soothing. But that sounds idiotic. Seriously. i can't explain without explaining what i talked about with him last monday... and that took decades for me to sort out enough to say... but suffice it to say that my emotional side doesn't communicate well but has strong needs.
so what do i ask for?
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