Posted by sunnydays on May 8, 2007, at 18:53:35
In reply to Re: inconsistency in my moods » sunnydays, posted by Daisym on May 7, 2007, at 23:41:10
> Sunny,
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> I think it is so great that you've found some strength and inner peace that is serving you well as you face anger and other kinds of scary emotions. You want it to last ALL the time...but I don't think that is possible for anyone. Everyone feels sad, gloomy, upset and other things from time-to-time. I think for those of us who are working on all these hard issues we forget that. We see all our negative moods as pathology that must be stamped out. Any respite from the pressing fog feels so good and is so novel, that we want to embrace it, hold it tight and never, ever let go.**** Exactly. I kick myself every time I start feeling bad, because there must be something I'm doing wrong not to feel good all the time. I think it must mean something is horribly wrong with me. But my T tells me it's perfectly understandable.
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> But moods are aptly named. They change and morph, sometimes in minutes.
>*** Really? For everyone? Because it seems like a lot of people sort of feel the same a lot of the time, but I seem to shift a lot. Maybe I just pay attention to it more.
> You can't control the fog - it drops in and settles on everything. But it also lifts and blows out again. No mood is permanent. More and more you will notice shifting out of a good mood as different, instead of shifting into it as different.
**** Yeah. Although I guess my T and I are working on getting me to be able to control the fog a little more, being able to get it to leave a little sooner rather than just sinking into it. It's so hard, though, and I can't say I've managed it yet.
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> You are still fragile and doing such hard work. Be kind to yourself and don't beat yourself up so much. Comfort that little girl who misses her therapist and needs protection. She didn't get sad overnight, it will take a while to undo this.
>**** I wish I could do this. I want to so bad, but I can't stop being so critical of myself. I think I should be able to pull out of this so much more quickly than I am. It's all obvious stuff, I just can't seem to make myself believe it. Thanks for replying Daisy.
sunnydays
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