Posted by peddidle on May 7, 2007, at 23:55:34
In reply to inconsistency in my moods, posted by sunnydays on May 7, 2007, at 22:36:03
I am not in the best state of mind right now either, so I don't know how much help I can be, but I wanted to respond because I am dealing with similar issues about sitting with my feelings.
I haven't been working on sitting with my feelings for very long, so I don't really know sure which of my T's suggestions work and what do not. I think these things are geared more towards obsessional thoughts, but maybe they'll work for you. When I recognize that I am having a bad thought, my T has told me to literally picture the word "STOP," and then switch my attention to something else, like TV, sudoku, a magazine, etc. She has also told me to try to recognize the difference between my own thoughts, and the obsessional thoughts (if that makes any sense), and to then detach myself as much as possible from the obsessional thoughts.
As far as wondering why your T is so nice to you, I wonder the same thing about my own T. Sometimes I feel like she thinks less of me when I tell her certain things, or that she'll think "wow, I thought you were somewhat normal, but I guess you really are crazy." I know it's irrational, and I know she's never run out of the room screaming after I've revealed something to her. I guess we just have to get past our own insecurities and trust that our T's tell us exactly how they feel, and that they don't hold any silent judgment in their heads.
I also get really discouraged when I've been doing well, and then all of a sudden, feel like I'm going backwards. Obviously I don't like feeling bad in the first place, but I also feel like I'm somehow disappointing my T. I have to constantly remind myself that psychology, by nature, is very inconsistent and unpredictable, and that "going backwards" doesn't necessarily mean that therapy isn't working, or that my T is thinking that she isn't helping me.
I hope I was able to help a little bit. Take care!
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