Posted by gazo on April 14, 2007, at 9:06:03
In reply to Help w/T, emotional expression*trigger?*, posted by muffled on April 13, 2007, at 23:20:44
(((muffy babe)))
i happen to think you are pretty f-ing nice too ;o) Top of the line actually.
i don't think this is as good as it can get because you *know* where the danger is. If you had no idea and felt vague then i think it woould be time for a break.
maybe you could print out exactly what you just wrote and give her that. Maybe you could spend time talking about how you are afraid of making her afraid. Maybe there are ways of managing that anger... and maybe your fear of the anger itself is an excuse in a way. i'm not meaning that in a bad way, but the stuff we tell ourselves is often not accurate. When you worry about the anger exploding.. maybe it's really the fear behind the anger that scares you... the anger is a cover for it.
a lot of times we are afraid of the fear. we hide it with anger.
are there safe ways you could work out some anger? like kick boxing or something that requires a lot of physical exertion? That would be the best for me too if i were physically able.. but i am not.
maybe the afraid part of you inside there wants her to be afraid so she won't come close.
that's kind of what i am doing. if i dazzle my T with how f'ed up i am then maybe he'll be too busy to see how scared i am.
just some things to think about.
you know i think you are pretty awesome. i LOVE attitude. One of these days it would be really cool to see you see yourself as others see you.
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