Posted by Iwillsurvive on March 6, 2007, at 22:55:21
In reply to appt with T today, posted by wishingstar on March 6, 2007, at 16:27:22
You not alone wishy I thinking of you.
Dunno what to say cept bout how its been w/my T, maybe that'd give you hope?
So:
Took long time for me to trust mt T at all. Now I finally mostly trust her. We have had bad sessions where she just SO didn't get me at all. She has admitted to me at times that she didn't know what to do w/me. That I was 'challenging'. She has consulted w/other in her practice bout me. She sent me to govt psych (they free) for consult(I got the boot out of their anxiety program). I have been mean to her. We have had utterly wasted sessions that sometimes are my fault and sometimes HERS! Cuz she got her own sh*t too. Once a week has been hard, its VERY slow progress, ESP at the first quite awhile. But I can't do 2x/wk, though she gives me a cut rate. But we have persevered, her with me, and ME with HER. Slowly we move ahead. Yup its slow.
What helps me in btwn sessions is sending her faxes, cuz then I feel connected somehow. Occasionally I will lv a message for her to tell me IF she got fax, but really I just want to hear her voice and know she's there....
So I dunno if you just having a dry spell w/Ginny, and whether if you persevere w/her that mebbe there will be better times ahead, or whether she just no good.
Wishy, seriously, I think you WAY stronger than you give yourself credit for. And you are supportive of me many times. You got so much good in you. I wish you the very best. I think you got ALOT of good stuff to offer to this world.
Take care your self OK? Sorry if my words are wrong. Sometimes I seem to say the wrong thing right now.
Kinda scattered somehow am I.
Take care.
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