Posted by Daisym on March 5, 2007, at 16:27:59
In reply to Re: have I ever wondered if I was ****trigger***** » Daisym, posted by Llurpsie_Noodle on March 5, 2007, at 14:51:31
I think it is a complete misconception that you have to "have what it takes." People tell me I'm brave sometimes. I tell them I'm not, I'm terrified most of the time and I'd run away from knowing what I know if I could. The thing is, it pushed its way into my consciousness despite a huge fight on my part.
My therapist is fond of saying, "the psyche has its own time table." He also believes that although I entered therapy for a completely different reason, the safety of being heard created a heightened need to be REALLY heard. And the more he hears me, the more I'm willing to tell. I ask him if he feels tricked into taking on a trauma client unknowningly. He says no, but I still worry about that. You know that your therapist knew what she was getting into with you and she signed on ready to wrap herself around all this cr*p. Hang onto that.
My advice, which is really hard, is don't push. Don't flood yourself and try not to hurry. Crashing comes no matter what, the shock of it, the outrage. But if you can fall from a slightly lower height, it is a little easier to get up and keep going. A little...
I'm glad the hug was OK.
Daisy
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