Posted by mair on February 22, 2007, at 22:05:04
In reply to Thinking of you » mair, posted by littleone on February 21, 2007, at 23:12:10
Thank you. I met with my T today for the last time before that long break and we talked about whether I can hold onto that connection. I think it will be easier since I seem to have crossed some sort of divide this week.
My T is having a harder and harder time with chemo, and we talked also about how she sometimes seems like she isn't all there or isn't listening well enough. She thinks it's fatigue and she told me that she vacillates between thinking it's better that she see people, even on a disjointed schedule or that she should just stop working until chemo is over and her strength is back some. I told her that I had sometimes wondered whether she should keep trying to work. When I was feeling so disconnected, I was thinking she shouldn't be working. Now I can see that if she had just stopped for several months, it would have been very very difficult for me to start back up again, and it probably would take a long time to get back on track. It always seems to be hard for me to get up to speed even with vacation breaks.
Thanks also for your note about responding (or not) here. Feeling that I haven't done something I should have and then totally freezing up about it until it gets so much worse seems to play out over and over again in all sorts of different circumstances. Funny how tough it is to break those patterns.
mair
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