Posted by muffled on January 4, 2007, at 23:14:58
In reply to Re: My session today (long), posted by wishingstar on January 4, 2007, at 20:39:35
> Thanks guys for understanding how hard that was and all your thoughts... this site is pretty much my only lifeline to the outside world right now.. how sad it that?
**not sad at all. You are working on stuff.
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> My intellectual side agrees with you all. It was responsible and honest for Ginny to say everything she did. It's better that she say than then lie and have it blow up later on. One part of me really does know that. But it just hurts. I know you all understand that. I dont know if she realizes quite how sensitive I am to that.. not that it means she shouldnt have said it.. but I dont know if she knows how that hits me. Again, another thing to add to the list I guess.**Dumpmeitis. I used to have a major case of that SO regularly, and myT would reassure me each time (she has the patience of a saint TG). However, she has said it better than your T. Can't remember exactly how she said it, but yes, we went thru the same spiel basically as you did, but when she realized that wasn't working, she then would say more along the lines of 'I WILL NOT dump you, I am here for the long haul, then she'd say to me bout how I doing the 'coats' thing, and sometimes she say bout how its the fear thing thats talking, etc. But I learned that it was OK to tell her (in writing of course) that I was suffering with dumpmeitis, and that would be her cue to reassure me. It helped. I didn't need a song and dance bout WHY, I JUST needed reassurance. This is LONG, but I trying to explain it right, cuz it was a BIG deal to me.
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> Luckily, she said she will ask for the paper, whether she sees one in my hand or not. And that (I think) will be enough to get me to give it to her. I am going to try to make the best use out of that I can.**Writing is everything to me. I CAN'T make myself talk bout stuff right out, I just blank out.
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> Poet, one thing you said really struck me because I can relate to it so, so much. You said you feel like a therapy failure. Me too.**Well I say little and scarecly look at my T, so I not so great, BUT THATS WHY I IN T!!!!!! LOL!
I mean, are most people really able to just go to therapy and say exactly how they feel with no coaxing?I just DONT KNOW HOW.
**And neither do I, but I learning. I am learning to recognize emots by the physical signs of my body. I am learning that some emotions are big, and some are small. And evrything in btwn.
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> Thank you again everyone for understanding.**Oh ya, you SO NOT alone in this...
>> Muffled, have a great time camping!! I hope it's not too cold where you are.
**LOL, hope so! Wind warnings! Rain! HA! But I living large, there's a FURNACE in the trailer and it works good!
Gonna be on west coast, could be some beauty waves!!!
See ya.
Muffled
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