Posted by annierose on November 10, 2006, at 16:54:40
In reply to Re: Unconditional acceptance » annierose, posted by Dinah on November 8, 2006, at 23:31:02
How did things go for you today? (or is your next session on Sunday?)
My session just went okay. I don't feel better, I don't feel worse (maybe slightly).
I did tell her that I didn't want her to fix anything, that I needed her to just accept where I was at and that it wasn't a good place.
She told me she asked questions to help her understand all that I was feeling, that she wasn't wanting me to do one thing over another, although it surely felt and still feels that way. AND ... in general (her theory) when I feel stress, I generalize these unsupportive feelings to all of mankind (based on my past experiences), when in fact, she wants more than anything for me to feel accepted and supported in her office.
After we discussed this issue and didn't get much of anywhere, she asked me some general questions about how I was doing with the move at work, and my relationship with my husband, etc. I couldn't answer her. Finally I said, "I don't feel like sharing my thoughts with you today." And that came straight from my heart.
Have you ever experienced that? Someone asks you a question and it pains you to respond? Not because the answer conjures up a painful or unpleasant experience, not because the answer isn't readily available, just because you don't want to share anything with that individual? That's exactly how I feel right now in therapy. And it's not a good feeling.
She said she was sorry that I felt that way. That she really did want to know how things were going for me at work and at home.
I guess it doesn't feel that way for whatever reason.
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